stay strong..

like a caterpillar turns into a butterfly..


when i broke down last nite,
i was in a vulnerable n weak state..


now i really need someone dearly to catch my tears..
answer my prayer,God...
pull me through all the pain n hurt..


i dun wanna be sad n have tears.........................................

last stike...

Emotional over friendship and passion,

Emotional over sick relative,

Emotional over heartbreak,

Emotional over studies and stress,

Emotional even over the weather...

Life is always changing and it is unpredictable,

As God doesn't always make things go according to our will.

There're always times that we feel like it's the end of the world and we wanna give up,

But it's not the end, it's just a challenge God has created for you and me.

He wants us to be strong, to keep on moving.

To be the one that is worth to be alive.

come n go..

Over the course of an average lifetime you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin, some weave their way through your life and disapear forever.
But every once and awhile someone comes along who earns a permanent spot in your heart.

inner strength..

feel safe to sleep tight every nite.

no one can hand me down.
nobody can break me down.

i believe so.

during nite time,all hell breaks loose,
tears streamed down my cheecks as i drifted off to sleep.
it was when all my sadness,anger and disappointment engulfed me.
it was when my sodden depth despair brought cries n nightmares to me.

but my inner strength seemed to have taken away my tears n sadness.
the special three parts tat i have owned seemed to have brought me out of the darkness n again put smiles on my face.
now light have come to me and i realize tat everything is so beautiful in my life.

karyn is B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L

babbling with a sick mind..

i guess all things in life have a limit to their capacity. Maybe it's just me but it seems that we tend to hold back and retain wat we want to give out in the first place. The common fear of giving out too much which incurs counter-rxn has anchored its permanent place within us all along. The fear of baring out hearts, the fear of others' perspective on us, the fear of rejection.

And that's the reason why we often find ourselves in loneliness. Becoz our unreasonably timidness forbids us frm stepping out, and our chances of attaining true happiness are swept away. Some say the courage of being rejected is the price we need to pay, but some of us cannot afford it. Vulnerability? Cowardice? Over self-protection?

There are times when we really give out and regret later on. We havent got the results we want to see and produce counter-effect in some cases. Expectation on our actions and their consequences dont always see each other eye to eye. That's when we sulk and want so badly things to turn out otherwise.

regret starts to fill my aching heart.

prayer leads me out of the dark.
the darkest hour is just before the dawn.
i shall believe God has his own plans for me, and he shall answer my prayer......

karyn must pick herself up,dust herself off,and begin again her life in SAMURA.

wipe away ur tears becoz the faith is inside u now.
feel the WHOLE of it..

谢谢特别的你。

是的，选择不看，也就拒绝了伤心。
是的，别无选择时，就闭上眼睛对着天空微笑。
沉默了。搁浅了。

不要现在，昨夜走得太快。

带着期待，缓缓地走向满地荆棘。

跌倒了怎么办？
流血了怎么办？
泪流了怎么办？

人越大，越孤单。
没有谁能陪伴着谁。

祖环，是时候咬紧牙关坚强地走下去了。
在忍一忍，一切都能熬过来的。

相信，明天的太阳会是新的。

闭上眼，慢慢重温一直在的心疼，还有那放不下的割舍。


She didn't want to admit it.It was easier to lie.Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.
Have you ever lived her life, have you ever spent one minute in her shoes?  If you haven't, then tell her why you judge her like you do.
She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story.
Behind her smile is a hurting heart.Behind her laugh, she is falling apart.She acts like she doesnt care,despite it hurts..

tom yam~~

yum yum..teary spicy tomyam..~~!! one of my fav ^^ slur slur n finish up the whole bowl..hotie soup made tears welled up in my eyes..but it tasted sweet in my heart..sat side by side n had our recess time in TIGS canteen..once in a blue moon huh??laughter n chatter filled up the air..karyn gonna miss every single moment v u..lets promise we will continue this season of friendship no matter how life brings us to..lets cherish every moment..lets strive for our own future in order not to let ourselves down..believe that nothing can hand us down..Best wishes from karyn to AZ..^^thnx for touching my heart dearie..u know who u r..=) u r the one that i wld brg ur soul v me for the rest of my life..u r my BFF sweetie..i seriously miss u a lot n a lot..miss u god damn much..those sweet memories n dear moments v u brought smile to little karyn..muah!! karyn kinda loves u,AZ..~~^^