be strong...

wat doesnt kill you makes u stronger...

activated...:D

shall active back my lovely blog....my promise....

maybe God has some plans for me...maybe leo cynthia n i share the same feelings...whenever i feel like im the loneliest one, i think of them who are suffering just like me too..perhaps i got them wrong..but i could feel that we FEEL so alone...
still, i cant open my hearts to frens in KMS...i have shut myself down...i have nvr been this way before n first time ever in my life i cried so much..tears were so bitter...i suck everything up n keep everything to myself...yea,NOT the same anymore...suffocated...
people can juz be so FAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i muz learn to protect myself...life can be so simple when i live my own life in KMS....
my heart doesnt fail me , my pain doesnt desert me....
im living for who im...
when we grow older, we get more lonely...tats why high school frens shall always be my lifelong frens...

those who fall the hardest,they shall bounce back the highest =)

it's Okay not to be Okay.....

我想念她的拥抱，我想念她的耳朵。

对不起，我失控了，我真的想念了。

Leo n Kaixin, i miss you n truly i do...simply becoz u understand wat im going thru now...even though i nvr said a word to u, i juz know u have the ability to feel how i feel rite now...slept together n lived together for two years wasnt a joke, but it gave us the needed time to understand one another so so well...samura doesnt have much chinese n tats why we can be so closed...even Leo when u start ur new chapter in Taylor next month, i bet u will nvr find back the ways we spent in samura...

i miss your hugs, Leo...n i really wish u can hug me now...with ur boney n skinny body, though....rmb the time at KFC in K-mall??i broke down n u knew how i felt...the fear of losing someone whom I love so so much...

Kaixin dear, i feel so so lost n alone now...tears cant tell how much pain im in now...it juz cut thru me n im so vulnerable now...my heart is bleeding n it really pains me so so much...why God has to be so cruel to me??i dun pray now...i am not a Servant to Him now...

perhaps time n distance have changed us...n perhaps you two cant feel the pain in me anymore n in fact, find me annoying n ridiculous..but juz deep in my heart, i believe our sister-ship can withstand time n distance...FEEL ME BACK n tell me wat im supposed to do to get back on my feet again...i dun wanna live in fear n i dun wanna c the most important person in my life suffering alone there...take my heart out of my chest n END THIS SUFFERING plsssss....

Sorie, im so imperfect n i need to put down my mask of being strong rite now...I REALLY NEED BOTH OF YOU...in front of u two, i can freely be a weak coward n bad person......................

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life 

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe
I will see you somewhere down the road again

挣脱。

我想要学会自我催眠，痛却会少一些。

a little encouragement goes a long way...

天蓝不蓝只有鸟儿知道；
水痛不痛只有鱼儿知道；

当所有的人都在乎你飞得高不高时，
只有真正的朋友关心你飞得累不累。

In dilemma....

Challenges n obstacles are ahead of me...

but i know wherever i go or watever i do, i must be extremely hardworking so tat i can make a better living for myself n oso my family....

moments with them...

oh three of us are best besties in which i know we will stick with one another thru thin n thick..we share laughters n tears...they are my best listeners n they simply know me well! :D

two years arent too short nor  too long for us to leave beautiful footprints in our hearts...behind our smiles,we  have shared so much memories together in which those bittersweet memories shall be etched in my heart for eternity...fate has put us together n no doubt i cherish two of them...they kept me company thru ups-and-downs when i was in samura..i really keep my fingers crossed that we will always keep in touch n shan't lose the warmth of friendship even distance has kept us apart from one another..Its my pleasure to get to know u guys.. =)

i really hope that we can be open to one another always...n our stories willl never have an ending....

Goh Jia Ean is my bedsister in Puj 1 and i really dote on her...i had so many heart to heart talks with her when  i was in samura...i may not be the best sister for her but i did cherish every moment i had with her...i know she loves me n i love her too :D though we only managed to spend a couples of months together, i really thank God for sending u into my life...