L'aumere des omod -
'It's French for ' Army of Shadows.' '
'And what does that mean to you?'
' I was going through a really rough time in my life, and it felt like a whole army was after me. But when I started feeling better, I realized it was nothing but an Army of Shadows.'
Sitting in front of my laptop, having the incredibly nice Buttermilk Waffles at Inside Scoop, I am now trying hard to recall my whole book of 2014 stories. It's gonna be a closed book in 24 hours. Ah time flies!
I was having a hard time dealing with my heavy workload, my surrounding and my own course mates. I was feeling so alone dealing with the circumstances despite I have my sweetie, family and few besties behind me all the way. And I started to doubt the position of my really so-called 'good friends' in my heart. They weren't there for me when I was on the brink of 'death'. The hell that I had walked through was really a nightmare to me. Not even a text. Not even an encouragement note. But that's okay.
I had a lot of heat argument with my own sis. My grandpa slept in his coffin forever. This hurts me, still. But that's okay.
My RM 7000 was being cheated by some fucking beasts. Yeshhh, RM 7000 ! Such a huge amount for a student like me. And the scene keep playing in my mind. Sometimes, I hope I can keep it inside the deepest part of my mind and set up a barrier so that it won't appear again. But that's okay.
Another unlucky incident happened to me less than two months ago when I accidentally reversed into a car. I was totally had a nerve wrecking experience but I faced it in any responsible manner through compensation. But alas, even though I was willing to pay for the damage fully, the other party had shown another bad side of human nature. Within a month, a motorbike ran into my car even though I was doing nothing. It was raining so heavily and he was badly injured. Haih. But that's okay.
Good things will eventually come to you when you keep your faith and always be positive. I have my own weak times when I curl around myself crying on bed, but I'd never lose faith. I am not saying I am really good at dealing with my own emotions, but I always acknowledge my own feelings, be it happy, sad or pain.
A very short post to remind myself to be strong and be independent.
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Live life, Love life. |
