2014.

L'aumere des omod - 

'It's French for ' Army of Shadows.' '

'And what does that mean to you?'

' I was going through a really rough time in my life, and it felt like a whole army was after me. But when I started feeling better, I realized it was nothing but an Army of Shadows.'

Sitting in front of my laptop, having the incredibly nice Buttermilk Waffles at Inside Scoop, I am now trying hard to recall my whole book of 2014 stories. It's gonna be a closed book in 24 hours. Ah time flies!

I was having a hard time dealing with my heavy workload, my surrounding and my own course mates. I was feeling so alone dealing with the circumstances despite I have my sweetie, family and few besties behind me all the way. And I started to doubt the position of my really so-called 'good friends' in my heart. They weren't there for me when I was on the brink of 'death'. The hell that I had walked through was really a nightmare to me. Not even a text. Not even an encouragement note. But that's okay. 

I had a lot of heat argument with my own sis. My grandpa slept in his coffin forever. This hurts me, still. But that's okay.

My RM 7000 was being cheated by some fucking beasts. Yeshhh, RM 7000 ! Such a huge amount for a student like me. And the scene keep playing in my mind. Sometimes, I hope I can keep it inside the deepest part of my mind and set up a barrier so that it won't appear again. But that's okay.

Another unlucky incident happened to me less than two months ago when I accidentally reversed into a car. I was totally had a nerve wrecking experience but I faced it in any responsible manner through compensation. But alas, even though I was willing to pay for the damage fully, the other party had shown another bad side of human nature. Within a month, a motorbike ran into my car even though I was doing nothing. It was raining so heavily and he was badly injured. Haih. But that's okay.

Good things will eventually come to you when you keep your faith and always be positive. I have my own weak times when I curl around myself crying on bed, but I'd never lose faith. I am not saying I am really good at dealing with my own emotions, but I always acknowledge my own feelings, be it happy, sad or pain.

A very short post to remind myself to be strong and be independent. 

Live life, Love life.

Where Rainbows End.

Spill the beans, life gets in my way and it sends me hurtling in different directions. Misunderstandings, circumstances and sheer bad luck seem to be conspiring to tear me apart. 

Few months later, And I feel so happy now. I want to enjoy this feelings and revel in my good fortune but there's something niggling at me in the back of my mind. There's a little voice whispering to me, 'Things are too perfect.' It almost feels like the calm before the storm.Is this how normal life is supposed to be? B'cause I'm used to drama, drama, drama. I'm used to both players and haters. I'm used to having to struggle, moan and whinge my way into something....???

Note to self: I don't want to be one of those easily forgotten people, so important at the time, so special, so influential and so treasured, yet years later just a vague face and a distant memory. 

 Thanks for the wonderful trip to Singapore to refresh my mind and recharge myself. I really can never get enough of the beauty of Singapore despite my endless visits here! Till then, Singapore!

The only motivation I have now to struggle through all the downs in life is my upcoming trip to Australia. I'm really looking forward to it! Aloha Aussie!😍😘💃👠👙🍔🍕🍟🍷🍹🍻

Mind-Body-Green

What would you throw away right now if you were given a magical trashcan where you could get ride of all stuff that's causing you stress? During times of stress and heaviness, what we need is to let go of the things that are causing the overwhelming feeling of, "it's too much."

Toss out the need to be "good" or "perfect". It's OKAY to mess up. It's OKAY for someone to see me become a little crazy. It happens to all of us. Tossing out the heaviness and the stress that weighs me down is the easiest way to feel light and free again. In lightness and freedom comes a sense of openness, expansiveness and newfound energy.

The whole tower yeahh Thanks for giving me that alcoholly night!

Quote from a famous blogger which has motivated me to update my blog: 'A short break is what needed for a longer, tougher journey, and I'm sure all of these self-pampering moments will help me stay stronger in my attaining of my dreams. Just because I'm single, just because I'm living by myself, it doesn't mean that this body and soul of mine do not deserve any tender and care anymore. I'm going to smile and keep doing things that I know will make myself feel better, as this is a journey to better understand myself, and to learn to love others more.'

Sometimes, all you need is a pat on your back, an activity that soothes you and your favourite dessert to make you feel better. 

You can get all of these just by loving yourself and Yesshhh, I'm gonna love myself more and more each day.

Start missing le zimuiis! ;'(

I'm gonna update a blog post about my secret 4 Days soon! Till then. :D

To-do-List: 

• Get myself a tub of Ben and Jerry's, 
• Explore more good cafes and good places in Msia, 
• Vacation,
• Dynamic Yoga session,
• And most importantly, God be with me this time. ;)

Heaven gained a beautiful Angel. :)

27 May 2014 7.08pm : In loving memory of my grandpa...

He's gone. Forever. But before he closed his eyes, I'm glad that his children and some grandchildren were there holding his hands tight till his last breath. But I wasn't there.

I know he's in a better place now, but oh how much I miss him now. I miss him dearly and I hope I get to see him in heaven one day.

Grandpa,' How is it in heaven? How is it being back with grandma? '........

If love alone could have saved you grandpa, you never would have died. In life I loved you dearly; In death I love you still. In my heart you hold a place that no one could ever fill. It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone. For all my love went with you, The day God took you Home.

Anyways, only a short yet my precious post for the night. So many things to do, so little time - I hope I get to go home soon! :(

---------All of your love I will always hold near.

Give Heart A Break. :)

Thank you- for being the real you. Learn to let go and be clear of where you really want to head for.

I pray hard, keep my fingers crossed- Everything will be fine. Stay strong Dad!<3 I believe my dad deserves what he wants when he is trying his best to fight for it, no one can take that right from him. 

Well, life is too short to miss out anything, so try to take it slowly. Make every moment count, enjoy your life time and don't waste it. Guess I should improve myself from now onwards?:P

Peeps, this is just a short and simple post from me- Yea, to give my heart a lil of break. Sighh Life moves pretty fast, too fast that I can't even breathe sometimes.

Ending the night with a piece of note to myself: If you wait for others to complete you, you'll never be able to have peace in your mind whenever you're alone. Only if you find peace within yourself, will you find true connection with others. ;)

It's not gonna be easy, but It's Gonna be worth it!

2014, I'm turning 20, and all I want is to be a more responsible person, to myself and to those who care.

Random pic with le sis in Sunway!:D

I would say, my focus this year is more towards my studies, my blog, and to carry out a healthy lifestyle. When 2013 came to an end and everyone was talking about New Year's resolution, I realized that I totally forgot about mine very soon after I wrote them down. It is useless to just talk or write about your NYR, when you don't take them seriously. I know I might not be able to hold on to my own principles sometimes, but I hope 2014 will be a great one for me. :)

My first semester just ended beautifully. Well, I knew I did not do well in my exam but I already tried my best. All I have to do now is leave the rest to God!   *Pray for me please*  

Sigh Dentistry life isn't a bed of rose. I am struggling through all the thick and thin. Guess I still need time to really adapt myself to this bitter-tough-torture dentistry life! Ahh, Life is hard. :/ However, I have been telling myself that God will always keep me on the right track, guide me through everything in life, be it easy or hard. I pray every night, I speak to God whenever I have troubles but when things are getting out of my hands, when I get more pain and tears in life, I doubt His existence in my life. I know I should have more faith in God, but.... Ahh, enough said, I'm glad that I have a guardian angel in my life whom I always trust and rely on. Oh ya, I still believe in God so don't worry!:))

Well, I am gonna bring some light and joy to my blog after ranting about my miserable life in university. ;) Here you go ------

Randomly signed up for the trip to Aswara after so many lifeless months of bored-ness in university. 

The beautiful Aswara. :D

Even the staircase also can be so artistic!:P

I'm grateful that I have someone special here who will always be there for me when I am down, upset, having Monday blues or even mood swings. The special one will bring me to Fish n Co when I need fresh fish to de-stress, treat me to Garage 51 when I break down, pick me up when I fall, bring me home when I am lost. There were times when I wasn't happy with my life but I thank God for keeping the special one safe by my side. :)

Garage 51.

Yummylicious yooz!:D

MayDay - My big motivator who have been motivating me whenever I am stressed out and feeling so all alone. 

MayDay's Live in LIVE - Once in a lifetime!:DD

Beeboobiibooo I'm a super duper big fan of Starbucks ever since I enter university. (My parents even intend to bring me to Kluang to have Starbucks drinks there during this Chinese New Year! Lol Don't laugh, simply becoz Starbucks still doesn't exist in the lovely Batu Pahat.:P) After going through all the hassle with the love, Thank God I've got you hwaayynnaalliieee - Starbucks Planner 2014!:D Awwww Thank you my love for making my little dream come true! <3

Starbucks Planner 2014! <3

High Tea Romance on a rainy day at Grand Hyatt Kuala Lumpur!:D 

Ahh so heavenly - Smoked Dry Ice Thirty8 Signature Cake!

Too blessed to try the Top One Dessert in KL! *wink

My fave at Bens Ohmegeeee!:P

TADAA My third Christmas away from home, and this year I had Secret Santa games with my course mates at Pavilion. Oops, it was before the Christmas. I spent my Christmas Eve and Christmas with my love, and I'm glad that I had a great one again. I did not go to Church this time but Hey, I've got to eat turkey at TGIF this year whhheeee!:DD I guess that's the ultimate way to celebrate Christmas when you're away from home! 

Le course mates. :)

Received my Converse shoes yessshhhh!:*)

Yea, I know this dentistry life isn't going to be easy but I will try my very best to cope with it and I keep my fingers crossed that I'll be able to handle my emotions well when second semester starts. 1314 - And I guess that's it! Thanks for reading my blog every so and then, listening to my rants and going through this phase of my life with me! :) I'll see you real soon for my Chinese New Year's post! ;)

#I'm not alone, I'm just lonely! ;D