Smile...=)

they perk me up....

Life has not been easy for me.....but this photo can put a smile on my face....simply becoz  they existed in my life.....nothing has changed...neither u nor me....

Life-ING

Wat's the point for me to share my pain n sadness with everyone ard me?

Ever since i have been keeping all to myself. I dun talk much now. So low profile Mmmmm...

I know i know there are people out there who understand my feelings like my family. But what can they do? Things aint changing n Life still goes on. No matter how many tears i have shed, No matter how depressed i have gone thru, I'm still alone. ALL ALONE with no one here for me. 

Where is the bubbly n cheerful Karyn? The blues that God sent to me has somehow defeated me. 

What if i say i wanna GIVE UP??....

I MISS THEM SO BADLY! :(

be strong...

wat doesnt kill you makes u stronger...

activated...:D

shall active back my lovely blog....my promise....

maybe God has some plans for me...maybe leo cynthia n i share the same feelings...whenever i feel like im the loneliest one, i think of them who are suffering just like me too..perhaps i got them wrong..but i could feel that we FEEL so alone...
still, i cant open my hearts to frens in KMS...i have shut myself down...i have nvr been this way before n first time ever in my life i cried so much..tears were so bitter...i suck everything up n keep everything to myself...yea,NOT the same anymore...suffocated...
people can juz be so FAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i muz learn to protect myself...life can be so simple when i live my own life in KMS....
my heart doesnt fail me , my pain doesnt desert me....
im living for who im...
when we grow older, we get more lonely...tats why high school frens shall always be my lifelong frens...

those who fall the hardest,they shall bounce back the highest =)

it's Okay not to be Okay.....

我想念她的拥抱，我想念她的耳朵。

对不起，我失控了，我真的想念了。

Leo n Kaixin, i miss you n truly i do...simply becoz u understand wat im going thru now...even though i nvr said a word to u, i juz know u have the ability to feel how i feel rite now...slept together n lived together for two years wasnt a joke, but it gave us the needed time to understand one another so so well...samura doesnt have much chinese n tats why we can be so closed...even Leo when u start ur new chapter in Taylor next month, i bet u will nvr find back the ways we spent in samura...

i miss your hugs, Leo...n i really wish u can hug me now...with ur boney n skinny body, though....rmb the time at KFC in K-mall??i broke down n u knew how i felt...the fear of losing someone whom I love so so much...

Kaixin dear, i feel so so lost n alone now...tears cant tell how much pain im in now...it juz cut thru me n im so vulnerable now...my heart is bleeding n it really pains me so so much...why God has to be so cruel to me??i dun pray now...i am not a Servant to Him now...

perhaps time n distance have changed us...n perhaps you two cant feel the pain in me anymore n in fact, find me annoying n ridiculous..but juz deep in my heart, i believe our sister-ship can withstand time n distance...FEEL ME BACK n tell me wat im supposed to do to get back on my feet again...i dun wanna live in fear n i dun wanna c the most important person in my life suffering alone there...take my heart out of my chest n END THIS SUFFERING plsssss....

Sorie, im so imperfect n i need to put down my mask of being strong rite now...I REALLY NEED BOTH OF YOU...in front of u two, i can freely be a weak coward n bad person......................

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life 

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe
I will see you somewhere down the road again

挣脱。

我想要学会自我催眠，痛却会少一些。

a little encouragement goes a long way...

天蓝不蓝只有鸟儿知道；
水痛不痛只有鱼儿知道；

当所有的人都在乎你飞得高不高时，
只有真正的朋友关心你飞得累不累。

In dilemma....

Challenges n obstacles are ahead of me...

but i know wherever i go or watever i do, i must be extremely hardworking so tat i can make a better living for myself n oso my family....

moments with them...

oh three of us are best besties in which i know we will stick with one another thru thin n thick..we share laughters n tears...they are my best listeners n they simply know me well! :D

two years arent too short nor  too long for us to leave beautiful footprints in our hearts...behind our smiles,we  have shared so much memories together in which those bittersweet memories shall be etched in my heart for eternity...fate has put us together n no doubt i cherish two of them...they kept me company thru ups-and-downs when i was in samura..i really keep my fingers crossed that we will always keep in touch n shan't lose the warmth of friendship even distance has kept us apart from one another..Its my pleasure to get to know u guys.. =)

i really hope that we can be open to one another always...n our stories willl never have an ending....

Goh Jia Ean is my bedsister in Puj 1 and i really dote on her...i had so many heart to heart talks with her when  i was in samura...i may not be the best sister for her but i did cherish every moment i had with her...i know she loves me n i love her too :D though we only managed to spend a couples of months together, i really thank God for sending u into my life...

the simplest dream...

如果驕傲沒被現實大海冷冷拍下 
又怎會懂得要多努力才走得到遠方 
如果夢想不曾墜落懸崖千鈞一髮 
又怎會曉得執著的人要有隱形翅膀 

把眼淚裝在心上會開出勇敢的花 
可以在疲憊的時光閉上眼睛聞到一種芬芳 
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮 
又能邊走著邊哼著歌用輕快的步伐 

沮喪時總會明顯感到孤獨的重量 
多渴望懂得的人給些溫暖借個肩膀 
很高興一路上我們的默契那麼長 
穿過風又繞個彎心還連著像往常一樣 

最初的夢想緊握在手上 
最想要去的地方怎麼能在半路就放 
最初的夢想絕對會到達 
實現了真的渴望才能夠算到過了天堂

lets smile n show our shinny white teeth!

oh she is my best bestie n dearie...she is tall n thin but i m fat n short...she is cute n bubbly but i m fierce n  rude...she talks softly but i laugh loudly...etc etc etc...but YIN and YANG do the great pair!!!lets hold our hands n each other tight n may we have an everlasting more-than-friends relationship :D lets be strong for each other n lets do our best in chasing after our dreams...words aint enough to describe how blessed n blissful i m to have a TRUE n REAL fren in my life...a bestie tat accept me for who i m...no matter how imperfect i m...i love YOU!!! :D

 

oh i love Baby Zeepee :D say cheesee~

oh we love food n we really enjoy our life!!! live to eat n eat to live too...food  can be so tempting for us :D

Carl's Jr.

My fav which can make my day...

the fast food restaurant which can really put a smile on my face aint KFC or MCD..but it will always be Carl's Jr. ...it is my fav restaurant that i love the most n fancy going becoz the food there is really really nice n delicious...let the pic tantalise ur taste buds~!!!!!! u will be hapie n smile once u enter the place...like a fairy tale that u can really indulge in it...forget about the world n juz put aside ur worries n troubles while enjoying ur moments there...

oh my Carl's Jr...~

lets get messy together~!!! YUM YUM :D

for infinity...

whheee we are sweet :D

God has given me a golden chance to allow a great n wonderful person  to enter my life..she always be there for me..give me the utmost needed support,care n love...i am so blissful n lucky...so mannyyyy moments n memories we have been experiencing together...and every single moment and all chapters of our stories shall remain in my heart n mind :D i love Loh Pei Wen~!

ever-best-yummy dessert :D

Chef's recommended...strawberry chocolate ice-cream toast...

Special taste of nutella peanut ice-cream toast..

let the pics make ur saliva drool! Two thumbs up :D they are the best-yummeh-scrumptious desserts i have ever eaten in my whole entire life...when i was in Bangkok, we purposely took BTC to Siam Paragon almost everyday juz to try out diff flavours..Oh God, the desserts are really driving me nuts... We didnt mind lining up n waiting patiently as there was so so crowded... If i have a chance to go back to BKK again, the first place i will visit is---THERE!wheeeeeeeee YUM YUM :D

Blissful...

The sun will shine on my way after the storm...

these few days have been tough, really tough for me..tears n pain have accompanied me for the past few days. I seem to see nothing but just darkness and messiness. People around me are oblivious of my pain n trouble. Till i feel tat i have been pushed to the wall and in deep end of darkness.

But, the Karyn Ter that i know is more than this. You are brave n strong. You can really work hard when you have put your heart into anything. There is nthng that come into your way. What is happening now is really just a glitch that comes into your way. It is just a test of your patience and belief. If you, Karyn Ter holds on to your belief and be determined,you will be far ahead soon, FLYING TOWARDS THE DREAM OF YOUR LIFE.

 Get past that fear of mine, that unsure feeling of mine, that weakness of mine, that disbelief of mine, that pain of mine and that tears of mine..Very soon i will be back on my feet again..Just trust that heart of mine, trust the journey in front of me and never give up.. :D

being my own bestiee...



had a quiet yet meaningful time at Renggit Cafe....



listened to my own heartbeat n found my peace finally... 



sucks..

of so many bittersweet incidents happened to me for the past few days...

the bitter parts brought so much hurt n sadness to me in which i was really frustrated till i didnt even know how to handle my own feelings...

life is so fragile tat i know only me can help myself to pull through it...

God creates me, He understands wat i m going through now...let me be positive...in every difficult situation, He shall keep me unharmed by the storm...

i wanna find the peace n i know there will always be one utmost important person out there to catch my tears n hold me tight when i m falling..so when i really broke down last nite n all negative tots appeared in my mind, I told myself to buck up n must pull myself up from the slump...Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So and Scrappy were praying for me with Sweetie so tat i can be safe,hapie and back on my feet..i know i have them all the way no matter wat...

life is all about ups and downs, isnt it??

Today may be a day tat brought sadness to ur face, but tomorrow shall be a day tat brings smile to ur face..

Life is nvr bout juz a day, Life is a lifetime of journey..

Always rmb wat is important is the process..Be it during the journey, it may bring sadness, happiness, excitement or unexpected,

wat is important is the never give up attitude of urs becoz wat is in front of u is more than juz today.....

stay tuned...

been lazy all these while n my lil-cute-awesome blog has been conquered by spider webs n dust :(

will try my very best to post n update some memorable n unforgettable experiences which brought me so much fun n laughter n tears..let me share my honeymoon with u guys..

oh my three-sweet-months honeymoon! =)